hiii, can someobody tell me if they feel uncomfortable almost all the time thinking about how they're going to have to be alive for a lifetime and its just awkward and disgusting being aware of existing? is it a symptom of some mental illness??
I used to feel the same way then my grandfather talked to me about building self-confidence integrity and honesty. We all go through such phases in life sometimes that makes us feel that the life we have is worthless. One of the reasons is the lack of motivation and passion. You need to give yourself a quick taste of success. Apply for an internship at a reputable organization, or try to win a competition. Being an ADHDer I also have to forcefully motivate myself to take interest in life and sometimes my dog helps me do that just by sitting with me or listening to me. https://esacare.com/top-3-benefits-of-an-emotional-support-animal-on-adhd-by-14-renowned-experts/.
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It is normal to have different kinds of thoughts about various walks of life. But having questions about living life and taking it as a burden is something you should be taking care of. It might be a symptom of mental condition such as anxiety and depression. You should be taking care of your thoughts and mental well-being and become a resilient person. If you look at it closely, Life is a beautiful phenomenon and you have to enjoy it under all the circumstances.