That's read sad to hear and I am really sorry for how you feel. But trust me when I say this, there is a lot to enjoy and cherish about this life. You may not see it now but down the road, when you meet the right people and make the right connections, you will. You just need to find out what it is that brings you the most joy, the brings a smile on your face. It could be spending time with a loved one or traveling or enjoying good food. Whatever it is, you need to understand yourself and then seek out what brings you joy. You need to change your attitude to life; you just can't be giving up on life just like that.
there's so much to do out there. First off, reach out to all your friends and family. start giving out calls to everyone and inquire about their whereabouts, see if they can catch up with you. Next, find yourself a hobby. Being busy is also a blessing that most of us tend to ignore. So, indulge yourself in work and your free time to friends & family and your hobby. Even at home, when you aren't do anything, surround yourself with a pet to keep you occupied and mentally fresh; pets can be a great of source of mood uplifting. https://esacare.com/emotional-support-animal-need-reasons/ Trust me, once you start on these things, you will feel much better about yourself. I wish you the very best